Still growing up

I guess no matter who you are, everyone loses their composure at some point.  Today I kinda lost it with someone and it wasn’t pretty.  The issue at hand is irrelevant for this post – that’s between me and this person to still sort out completely.  But I’m not happy with myself about finally saying, “Whatever.  I’m done” and then walking away.  That is NOT a person I’m proud to be.  Yes, I knew I didn’t have anything further to say (that I wouldn’t regret), nor was I willing to listen anymore.  But what do you do when you get to that point?  Walking off isn’t the answer but what do you do??

Neither of us was fully right nor fully wrong in the things we said or felt.  We both had our own skews about the topic and what each other was saying.  I know I have some self-examining to do, some things to think/pray over.

We saw each other a little later and both apologized.  It was sincere and I’m very thankful for that.  We still need to finish the discussion but I think it will be handled more appropriately and with more care for each other.

I guess my point in writing this post is some sort of self-acknowledgement that I don’t always have it all together.  Maybe I like to think I’m more mature than I really am.  Pride still catches me by surprise.  I’m still growing up.